i'm posting after how long?
nothing to say, just randomly decided to look at lj.

Current Mood: blank

i've never been this stressed, ever.
at least i know i can handle shit now.
that's all it's been.  one shitty thing after another.  i haven't been eating, and i can actually see it in my face.  it looks a lot thinner.  but i am such a girl, i kind of like it.
but i got vertigo and decided i should eat.
*note to self* food is good for you.  and kind of necessary.  just kind of.

fuck unf for screwing me out of my scholarship money.  if i don't have it tomorrow, someone's going down.

Current Mood: stressed

iTunes meme!

Total number of tracks: 4999

Sort by song title:
-First Song: 'till tonight by Green's the New Orange from Bedroom Recordings
-Last Song: an eastern youth song that i can't write the title of here, from 8 Teeth to Eat You

Sort by time:
-Shortest Song: "Horn Intro" by Modest Mouse from Good News for People Who Love Bad News (0:09)
-Longest Song: "Better Man" by Oasis from Heathen Chemistry (38:02)

Sort by album:
-First Song: "A Northwest Passage" by The (International) Noise Conspiracy from A New Morning, Changing Weather
-Last Song: "Elephant Parade" by Jon Brion from the Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind soundtrack

Top 10 Most Played Songs:
1. Minus the Bear-Thanks for the Killer Game of Crisco Twister (29)
2. Minus the Bear-Drop it Like It's Hot (17)
3. Dashboard Confessional-Saints and Sailors (16)
4. The Postal Service-The District Sleeps Alone Tonight (15)
5. The Postal Service-Clark Gable (15)
6. Sage Francis-Majority Rule (15)
7. Chevelle-Vitamin R (Leading Us Along) (14)
8. Chevelle-The Red (14)
9. Incubus-Glass (14)
10. Incubus-A Certain Shade of Green (14)

the top 10 would be very different if i hadn't lost all my music recently.  that sucks.
First five songs that come up on Shuffle:
1. Incubus-Magic Medicine
2. Eric Clapton-Classical Gas
3. Aloha-Thermostat
4. Badly Drawn Boy-Pissing in the Wind
5. Carissa's Weird-September Come Take this Heart Away

Search ....
"sex", how many songs come up? 11
"love", how many songs come up? 161
"you", how many songs come up? 508
"death", how many songs come up? 67
"hate", how many songs come up? 24
"wish" how many songs come up?  35

and of course...
"monkey", how many songs come up? 10

MWF: Later American Lit 9-9.50
MWF: Lit Interpretations 10-10.50
MWF: Intro to Philosophy 11-11.50
MW: Intro to Education 12-1:15
MW: British Novel 1:30-2:45 (and I am SO excited about this one)

Current Mood: happy

i spent halloween with lots of gay people at the metro. and james. haha. he didn't drink for fear of roofies.

maybe i should study now, since i have a test i need to make a decent grade on in 2 and a half hours.

perhaps.

but the net is just SO distracting. i love it.

Current Mood: good

why is it that my hair still smells like cigarettes though i use very strong coconut mango shampoo?

damn jack rabbits.

i've decided not to feel guilty about procrastinating anymore.  i just finished a 1500 word paper.  i wrote it today, and it's due in my first class tomorrow.  and i am damn proud of it.  i wrote about how women's love was tainted in oedipus rex and hamlet. and i think it's pretty good.  i just have to read through my hard copy and make sure all my verb tenses are right.  my one issue with it is that it has passive voice, but it's kind of hard to avoid it since many times i use the future tense hypothetically.  so yeah. 

x-men and little mermaid release today.  i was pretty busy at work.  of course it didn't help that i was running the registers almost completely by myself.  new girl is getting on my fucking nerves.  i told her on sunday night exactly what to do monday night--to call the reservations and what not.  so i come in today and realize that the reservations that i didn't get a chance to call on sunday night are still sitting where i left them. 

me: did you call the reservations last night?
she: no.  i was putting out dvds.  i didn't know where the list was to call them.
me: i told you they only did that for x-men and little mermaid.  you have to look up the phone numbers.
she: oh.  so like i did before?
me (inside): omigod she's a fucking moron i told her exactly what to do last night and did she just not listen or did she forget and is it too much for her to wrap that little mind around i am an asshole.
 

argh.  argh.  argh.  how fucking hard is it for people to do their jobs?  the idiot new guy can't have people sign a credit card slip. 

wait a second.  these people aren't new anymore.  my favorite new person's got it all down already.  and she's been there as long as they have.

incompetence, thy name is movie stop employee.

Current Mood: aggravated

i really hate it when i can't give someone who cares about me a reason why i'm depressed and taking it out on them. 

one of my regular customers was arrested for grand theft.

she stole over $20000 from tithes and donations FROM HER CHURCH.

she said she wanted nice things.

i can't stop laughing.

Current Mood: amused

i don't know what it is about college but all of a sudden i am able to take naps.  i could never sleep during the day before, no matter how tired i was.  i just took a three hour nap and i feel much better.  i don't think i get enough sleep but i really don't care.  i love staying up late.  there's so much opportunity during the night.  it seems longer than the day.  at night, i feel less worried about things.  and i love driving at night, though, when i first started driving, my dad said, "no, you don't."  oh yes, i do.

i think i'll study for my test now.

Current Mood: content

i'm tired.

estoy cansada.  mucho.  i got up at 11 because jon, kay, and i were supposed to go to brunch at abby's work.  but i'm assuming since i haven't gotten a call, jon didn't get out of bed.  so i started reading shakespeare.  i probably have a quiz tomorrow on it, so maybe i should actually do this thing they call homework. 

but anyways.  i hung out with kay yesterday.  we got our eyebrows waxed and went shopping.  girly stuff.  i enjoy being a girl sometimes. 

i should probably go back to hamlet.  i'm cheating though.  i'm not reading the actual play, i'm reading someone's modern english interpretation.  no fear shakespeare.  cheater, cheater.

p.s.  my cat likes my roommate better than me because she's home most of the time.  argh.

Current Mood: drained

i've decided i am ready for school to start.  and this makes me crazy.  today i bought my books.  almost 400 dollars for all of them.  i was going to wait.  but i'm really glad i didn't because i ended up getting all but two used.  i bought them at the unf bookstore, which is slightly more expensive than college book rack and byotb, but it was less hassle because i didn't have to transfer money and all that business.

i would have saved around...ten bucks.  but it's not money out of my pocket.  i love how unf pays me to sit in class.  it's kind of sad, that they're paying me around a grand a semester for stuff i already know.  i hate gen ed requirements.  but i'm done with them, after this semester.

tonight i am going to see beerfest with james and his roomie, and jon, should he choose to wake up.    right now i'm at barnes and noble.  too bad this wifi isn't free.  i didn't feel like driving to unf.  it's slightly farther. 

if i don't get to go to the dragon con this weekend, i'm going to be pissed.  i hope rex can work my shifts for me.  i never get to do anything because we're not allowed a third manager at the...best place to work in the world.  so we're fucked if one of us gets sick or if two of us want to take the same time off.  and james gets to go and i don't.  fuck that shit.  pardon my french. 

Current Mood: angry

am i sick?

yesterday, i hardly ate.

tonight, i had dinner with my dad, who said that not eating is a sign of depression.

perhaps.  though i can't really figure out why.  maybe it's a full moon.  i get weird around full moon time of the month.

then jon thinks i'm mad at him, which neverhappens.  today he had an upper GI and i was going to bring over the sentinel but he was sleeping when i called and i'm not going to call in case he's sleeping still because he needs rest.  he's opening tomorrow and our DM's coming.  tomorrow is my first day off since last thursday.  

but james is back!  yay!  decent crew member, someone i get along with.  finally.  i hate all the douchebags at work.  not jon or james, of course.  i'm really tired of my store being a fucking disaster area because of apathy/incompetence.  and when i say incompetence, i mean incompetence.  honestly, how hard is it to work at moviestop?  what does it entail?  when you're the dumbest shit on the planet, i guess it's a lot.

this guy's name is kevin.  we've figured out that we shouldn't hire people named kevin.

know what i mean, jeanne?  this guy's as bad as the first kevin.  at least the first kevin could clock out without staring at the lookup screen for five minutes, wondering what to do. 

kevin> how do i get to the logoff screen?
kathryn> (in monotone) hit cancel.

this freakin douchebag was at the store this morning to check out a movie before i was back from the bank.  it was way too early to see him.

i can't wait until he's fired.

soon.

soon.

Current Mood: bitchy

i STILL do not have internet at my apartment.

i came to unf to buy a parking permit.

fucking garage permits are sold out.

so here i am.

paying bills.

yay.

btw, in case you haven't seen me in a while or at least the past few days, i've straightened my hair.  with a flat iron, not chemicals.

it looks pretty hot.

Current Mood: complacent

friday is almost here...

Current Mood: excited

i feel like i've been busy...but i don't really know if i have.  too busy for the internet i guess. 

as of friday, i will no longer be living in my parent's house.  i will be in the glades with trina and i'm so excited.  besides the whole packing part that is. 

i think i should start reading a book.  i haven't done that in a while.  my discount at barnes and noble is about 50% right now.  how amazing is that?  i bought some "put down" magnetic poetry for my new refrigerator.

my parents seem to be having a competition between themselves to see who can give me more shit out of their kitchens.  my dad's given me four sets of dishes.

i have to go now and spend my day off packing up my shit.

Current Mood: pensive

oooh it's been a while.

i've been really stressed over fighting with my parents (every day it seems like...)

so stressed that i've screwed up a few everyday things.

i hate that.

i'm just ready to get this moving out thing over with.

like, NOW.

i just saw the davinci code. i don't know why i was holding out hope for it since it is the worst book i've ever read.  i thought maybe since it has audrey tautou and tom hanks and ian mckellen (and paul fucking bettany...even as a creepy albino i was somewhat attracted to him) and maybe since it was written by akiva goldsman who's not too bad and maybe since it was directed by ron howard who's pretty good...

nope.  it sucked ass.

Current Mood: blank

(dad): have you talked to amy and gerald since they've been in town?
(me): yeah. amy came over here friday night.
(dad): they're good people. i like them better than your new crowd, and so does your mom.
(i get very very angry and try not to show it.)

new crowd.

so fucking pissed.

Current Mood: infuriated

i think i'm moving out soon.

really.

i think it might happen this time.

trina and i found this BEAUTIFUL apartment, but i think i may want to go for a different one since neither of us need a garage and we'd be paying for it.

it's going to be difficult with my parents, but i think i'm just going to have to do it. i think they're pretty much going to shoot down anything i want to do except the dorms.

but i've figured out that i like my space WAY too much to have to share a room with somebody. even in the upperclass housing i wouldn't have my own room, so yeah.

i had a great weekend. i spent it mainly with kay, trina, and jon, and james a few times.

this girl at work totally wants to get into james' pants. it's pretty funny. but then she came in asking me if i had a "secret crush" and telling me that she "suddenly found {herself} at james's place."

as if i care.

this girl really is crazy.

this is the girl who doesn't like working with me because i'm...

wait for it...

too mature.

she's 18 and acts like she's 12.

but anyways, enough of that.

i might be moving out!

Current Mood: i've got a headache